Was out in town with Dede just now. He fetched me at 715pm and I reached home at 930pm. Fast isnt it?? ha~ha~~~~... Wanted to watch a movie just now but aborted the plan just because of something I said. It was unintentional, trust me. I dont really wanna say it out in his face. I guess most of us have gone through this before, like I-dont-wanna-say-what's-bothering-me-but-if-I dont-say-it-I-dont-feel-right kinda mood. Of course I regretted right after those words came out, 'cause that gives him a chance to point the finger at me for showing him 'an attitude'. So in the end, I feel like Im being 'punished' for saying what's on my mind.


It all started with you being so impatient with the slow moving cars in front of you and you started showing your displeasure (not towards me). I mean, although the anger was not directed at me, but how would u feel if a person beside you was like scolding and feeling so frustrated with a stranger who was obviously not wrong in the first place? You wanna drive fast, that's your way. Doesnt mean that all people have to follow your way.


And I always feel that we should respect the elderly most of the times. I said most of the times 'cause some irritating elders really dont deserve to be respected, examples are those perverted uncles, kiasu aunties etc. I believe we all have a little kiasu-ism in us and when i mean kiasu aunties, I mean VERY kiasu aunties, like pushing and squeezing her way up the bus when it's very obvious Im already giving her the way. Okay, anyway sometimes I feel that you dont have to shout and let the whole world know that you are unhappy. That auntie merely didnt hear what you said and you just have to repeat your orders slowly. I noticed that the auntie was glaring hard at you with HATRED!! Her expression tells me she was really hurt, you know. Put yourself in her shoes!! The feeling of being scolded but not able to retaliate was really unbearable. So, in the end, I told you about what I saw and you exclaimed that she didnt hear you so that's the reason you talked loudly. I think the whole of Orchard Road can hear you already. What are you trying to do? You want all the people to know that you are a difficult person to deal with?! It doesnt only look bad on Y.O.U., it look bad on M.E. too!!


By the way, let's imagine a group of people standing in your way, do you
A) push them away and walk in between them
B) move to the side and walk past them?


Normal people will choose B. Only Ah Bengs will choose A. Those who choose A are obviously asking for trouble. And when trouble comes, ask yourself who started the whole thing.


I dont know whether Im too sensitive or what. But Im not a person who loves to quarrel in public. You wanna quarrel with me when Im at home, I most obliged to do that but in public?? It's too embarrassing for me. I dont like attention in a bad way. So, the only thing I would do when Im feeling pissed is to pull a long face. Dont try to pull it even LONGER!! Im afraid I might just explode and splash all my juices on you.


So, if you are not in the best of mood, be it due to work stress, or maybe someone you met on the road accidentally step on your toes, please stay at home.


Or you can rent a planet from Mother Earth and stay there for the rest of your life. With no one to irritate you, no cars to hog your road, I believe you will be the happiest man in the Universe.


I think your behaviour will somehow be influenced by the person whom you are spending most of the time with. I remembered I used to keep to myself when there's an argument. I dont like to express my feelings, or rather I dont really want to. I thought that being keeping quiet, I can avoid the problem and get on with life. But now, how many times have I been screaming uncontrollably over a small matter? I was told to express my thoughts and so I did. I no longer care how it will strain our r/s 'cause " why should I care when you dont give a damn about it?"


Okay, Im being abit long winded here. My first post ever, totally ranting.




He is the only one who makes me happy.

Love ya!!

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Goodbye Tootsie...

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When you know you have to do it, you HAVE to do it... Things wont change for the better when you procrastinate. Likewise, ppl wont change for the better when given chances.


Some things are not meant to be known, it's called a secret. I knew your secret. And it hurts alot.
I chose to blind myself, or rather, put on a mask in front of you. I dont know I can be so deceiving. And It hurts alot.


Baby I love you, but I dont have the will to carry on. 'Cause it hurts alot.

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If I were blue, would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time
If I feel good,would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me, would you run with me.
And never look back


Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away...
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away
Would you be there...


If I am away would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now (hold me now)
And would you die for me, would you run with me... All the way...


Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away...


Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there, to kiss my pain away...


Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away...


Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there, to kiss my pain away
Would u be there, for me

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You may wanna skip the grey portion...


It all started on 25th May. I was back from the wards at 11+am. As soon as I sat down within 5 mins, I feel weird. Was feeling very tired and restless. I msn-ed Jesslyn and told her abt it. During lunchtime, I slpt all the way for 1 hr, and had been feeling uneasy for the rest of the day. I sensed that I might be falling ill so I postponed my shopping trip with Jesslyn to next wed. I must be feeling so terrible that it affected my memory. [I 4got that I had classes on wed.] Went hm on that day. Had a fever and it escalated as I was lying there motionlessly, occasionally rising to get a cup of water.


26th May, I was feeling better after the 4 Panadol extras the previous night. Went to school for lab, town-ed after that and ktv at night.


27th May(mon), went to work, felt uneasy, took mc at 11+am and went home to slp all the way to 5pm. Woke up and decided not to go for lectures.


Felt better for the rest of the week. But had a sore throat on thurs, Vesak Day. But still, I went out.


Went to work on 1st June. Skipped class to study for the mcq test on sat. After the mcq test, met Jesslyn, finally!! Sunday was well, Monday was well, Todae... had sore throat again....


The point of this entry is... I'M SICK AGAIN!! By the way, Im studying Immunology now. N I know how the system works!! I dont need to experience it personally!!! I mean, if it helps in my exams then it's still fine. Now it's affecting my ability to study!!! argh!!

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I did say I wanna fall sick coz I wanna take MC.... But I never say I wanna fall sick on a friday!!! And I'm supposed to meet Jesslyn for our shopping spree later... grrrrr.... I'm sorry Jesslyn... I'm really sick this time.. If not I wouldnt cancel our meetup 'cause shopping's my motivation....


And 1 more annoying thing.... I hope all guys listen up. Please be more sensitive towards the feelings of people around you. And if you need help from them, you gotta make sure that you do it in a way that it is to THEIR convenience, not yours!! The one who you need help from might not feel anything, but other people might think otherwise, especially women. Not clear enough??


Let's take online shopping as an eg.


You bought a top from this seller who only provides postage service. You, in order to save on the postages, wants a meet up. And since the seller is nice enough, she suggested a meetup at her convenience. You can also suggest a time and venue but that is up to the seller whether to accept or not. Now, she suggested a meetup at Boon Lay at 3pm and you cant make it. Instead you scolded her for suggesting a place which is at the far end of S'pore. She, being so wronged, leaves you a negative feedback. So, in the end, you did not get the top as the deal falls through, and also you have a negative feedback and everyone knows that you are such a b*tch!!


Got it??

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I'm so dead

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Tears are words that a heart could not say


A crystal drop of it could touch someones soul


The silent tears are the worst ones that love can give you

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I'm contradicting.
I know I have to choose option A but why am I procrastinating??
The answer is clear but my mind is not....
Who can give me directions??

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