Friday, April 18, 2008
Was out in town with Dede just now. He fetched me at 715pm and I reached home at 930pm. Fast isnt it?? ha~ha~~~~... Wanted to watch a movie just now but aborted the plan just because of something I said. It was unintentional, trust me. I dont really wanna say it out in his face. I guess most of us have gone through this before, like I-dont-wanna-say-what's-bothering-me-but-if-I dont-say-it-I-dont-feel-right kinda mood. Of course I regretted right after those words came out, 'cause that gives him a chance to point the finger at me for showing him 'an attitude'. So in the end, I feel like Im being 'punished' for saying what's on my mind.
It all started with you being so impatient with the slow moving cars in front of you and you started showing your displeasure (not towards me). I mean, although the anger was not directed at me, but how would u feel if a person beside you was like scolding and feeling so frustrated with a stranger who was obviously not wrong in the first place? You wanna drive fast, that's your way. Doesnt mean that all people have to follow your way.
And I always feel that we should respect the elderly most of the times. I said most of the times 'cause some irritating elders really dont deserve to be respected, examples are those perverted uncles, kiasu aunties etc. I believe we all have a little kiasu-ism in us and when i mean kiasu aunties, I mean VERY kiasu aunties, like pushing and squeezing her way up the bus when it's very obvious Im already giving her the way. Okay, anyway sometimes I feel that you dont have to shout and let the whole world know that you are unhappy. That auntie merely didnt hear what you said and you just have to repeat your orders slowly. I noticed that the auntie was glaring hard at you with HATRED!! Her expression tells me she was really hurt, you know. Put yourself in her shoes!! The feeling of being scolded but not able to retaliate was really unbearable. So, in the end, I told you about what I saw and you exclaimed that she didnt hear you so that's the reason you talked loudly. I think the whole of Orchard Road can hear you already. What are you trying to do? You want all the people to know that you are a difficult person to deal with?! It doesnt only look bad on Y.O.U., it look bad on M.E. too!!
By the way, let's imagine a group of people standing in your way, do you
A) push them away and walk in between them
B) move to the side and walk past them?
Normal people will choose B. Only Ah Bengs will choose A. Those who choose A are obviously asking for trouble. And when trouble comes, ask yourself who started the whole thing.
I dont know whether Im too sensitive or what. But Im not a person who loves to quarrel in public. You wanna quarrel with me when Im at home, I most obliged to do that but in public?? It's too embarrassing for me. I dont like attention in a bad way. So, the only thing I would do when Im feeling pissed is to pull a long face. Dont try to pull it even LONGER!! Im afraid I might just explode and splash all my juices on you.
So, if you are not in the best of mood, be it due to work stress, or maybe someone you met on the road accidentally step on your toes, please stay at home.
Or you can rent a planet from Mother Earth and stay there for the rest of your life. With no one to irritate you, no cars to hog your road, I believe you will be the happiest man in the Universe.
I think your behaviour will somehow be influenced by the person whom you are spending most of the time with. I remembered I used to keep to myself when there's an argument. I dont like to express my feelings, or rather I dont really want to. I thought that being keeping quiet, I can avoid the problem and get on with life. But now, how many times have I been screaming uncontrollably over a small matter? I was told to express my thoughts and so I did. I no longer care how it will strain our r/s 'cause " why should I care when you dont give a damn about it?"
Okay, Im being abit long winded here. My first post ever, totally ranting.
He is the only one who makes me happy.
Love ya!!
Labels: I'm feeling farked up, Rant
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FLY AWAY LOVE <3
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FLY AWAY LOVE <3
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