There are so many things running in my mind now.... This is the 3rd time I 'm logging in today to post my thoughts... hmm...


I remember b4 Dede and I got together in Dec 04, he would call me in his bunk and we would talked for hours late into the night. I would lie on the floor in my living room, talking nonsensical things, and was always looking forward to meeting him on Saturdays..


Many many years has passed, and this routine has changed to less-than-5mins talks. I would call him to inform him that Im going to sleep soon, and his reply would always be either, I'm watching CSI/Numbers/Chuck etc now, or I'm playing games now ( his latest obsession is Chi Bi), or I'm sleeping already.... We have missed out on alot of time to interact with each other, to ask each other on the things that we are doing, on our sch work, to care for each other...


Is that what we have to go through after being together for so long?


Are we both taking each other for granted?


I don't know.. I think maybe we just want some personal space


Anyway, there's some problems with my handphone lately.. Whenever a call gets through, I can hear the distracting 'buzzing' sound and it just gets louder n louder. In fact, Im grateful that this happen.


Because of this, I started using my house phone to call him, and it brings me back to those days!! I lied on the floor, looking up to the ceiling, and memories of me doing the same thing 4yrs ago kept flooding in..


I began telling him stories of my recent happenings.. He gave me advices and talk just like 4yrs ago.. I'm actually quite surprised by this. And Im very grateful.


I cant say that we'll be doing this everyday from now onwards, coz he is out with his BMT gang NOW, and I'm going to sleep soon... But I dont mind doing it once a week, that is IF he is willing to accomodate.

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Just a thought which ran across my mind


I was being told this,' I think you are abit naive, maybe because you have not seen the world and interacted with alot of people....'


By the way, we were discussing on some issues on human attitudes.. I believed all of us have our own opinions and views... Just because I think that this particular person is not bad by nature, doesn't mean that I will always see this person as a 'good person'. And just because I view him/her differently from you, doesn't imply that I have not been interacting around.


What has interacting with ALOT of people gotta do with character judgement? Does it mean that interacting with 1000 or above people will increase your judging skills? I think not!


And definitely Im not naive, Im sharp at certain things okay?




Change topic.


I think I have reach a stage where my energy levels has dropped to 40%. 30% was spent during work, so left 10% after work.. Please forgive me if I tend to 'stone', or not answering your questions.. I was too tired to reply.. I don't know why.... Even on saturdays... I usually cant last til after 12mn. But but but, if I nap before I go out, I may be able to last til 2am... That is good enough!!!

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Opportunities always come when I have made a decision... Now, I'm hoping for the best, although I do not know which way is the suitable for me... But I'm still going to give my best in it. If Lady Luck smiles at me, I hope she can also enlighten me on which way to choose.. ehh.. confused?


Time will reveal


*** Im very very grateful for this chance... in fact, for everything..

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