Friday, February 06, 2009
There are so many things running in my mind now.... This is the 3rd time I 'm logging in today to post my thoughts... hmm...
I remember b4 Dede and I got together in Dec 04, he would call me in his bunk and we would talked for hours late into the night. I would lie on the floor in my living room, talking nonsensical things, and was always looking forward to meeting him on Saturdays..
Many many years has passed, and this routine has changed to less-than-5mins talks. I would call him to inform him that Im going to sleep soon, and his reply would always be either, I'm watching CSI/Numbers/Chuck etc now, or I'm playing games now ( his latest obsession is Chi Bi), or I'm sleeping already.... We have missed out on alot of time to interact with each other, to ask each other on the things that we are doing, on our sch work, to care for each other...
Is that what we have to go through after being together for so long?
Are we both taking each other for granted?
I don't know.. I think maybe we just want some personal space
Anyway, there's some problems with my handphone lately.. Whenever a call gets through, I can hear the distracting 'buzzing' sound and it just gets louder n louder. In fact, Im grateful that this happen.
Because of this, I started using my house phone to call him, and it brings me back to those days!! I lied on the floor, looking up to the ceiling, and memories of me doing the same thing 4yrs ago kept flooding in..
I began telling him stories of my recent happenings.. He gave me advices and talk just like 4yrs ago.. I'm actually quite surprised by this. And Im very grateful.
I cant say that we'll be doing this everyday from now onwards, coz he is out with his BMT gang NOW, and I'm going to sleep soon... But I dont mind doing it once a week, that is IF he is willing to accomodate.
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FLY AWAY LOVE <3
-12:22 AM-
FLY AWAY LOVE <3
-12:22 AM-
